My Parents Never Loved Me

I have always felt that my mother and father have never loved me. I am fifty four years old and still feel this way. I would like to know the reason before I die why they do not.

One time a friend of mine, actually a boyfriend back in the late seventy's, by the name of George Pappas explained to me why he thought they never loved me. He said that since I was the third child and my parents already had the perfect family - a boy and a girl, that my arrival put a boomerang in their idea of a perfect family. Also, at one month old I became ill with the hoopen cough which caused the leaders of my eyes to weaken; thus I became cross-eyed. Back when I was a kid, any type of deformity - anything less than perfect - was considered as retarded. So, as George explained to me, having an unwanted third child, and being labeled as retarded is a possible explanation for their not loving me. I do remember, many times, my mother saying, "I don't know what's ever gonna become of Opal!"

I have worried and cried over their not loving me many times over the years. I have tried to do different things to make them love me and to feel acceptance from them. None has worked. I might think that maybe I am wrong, but the same feelings have been with me for my entire life; so this leads me to believe that maybe they are real feelings and they have never ever loved me. The feelings have intensified over the years from different actions my parents have done to prove their unlove for me.

As I said, I always felt unloved by them; but I was never completely sure of this until I had my own children. The strong love I have for them shows me that my parents do not love me. I have never felt one fraction of the type of love I have for my children from my parents.

One time I asked a fortune teller why my parents have never loved me. She told me that I have an old soul and that the type of love I

                  am capable of having and projecting – they do not even understand.

The new book from Dixie Publishing:

100 STORIES FROM AN OLD STRIPPER

By Opal Dockery

100 STORIES FROM AN OLD STRIPPER: BOOK TRAILER!!!

Women's Rights Topless Documentary Screens Over 15 Film Festivals Worldwide

Sometimes it takes an old stripper to help change the world.

TITS, the shocking, eye opening 7 minute short film documentary about women's rights, equality and discrimination, has screened over 15 film festivals worldwide in its first 6 months.

Directed by first time 67 year old female director Opal Dockery, TITS is exploding worldwide on the film festival circuit.

TITS screened last week in Las Vegas at the Pollygrind Film Festival. This weekend, the film returns to Las Vegas to screen at the Cinerockom Film Festival in Malibu.

The award winning short documentary film is a story about a woman's right to go topless in public.

TITS
Directed by Opal Dockery
A Dixie Film

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TITS Documentary Film to Premiere in London

FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE

WOMEN'S RIGHTS DOCUMENTARY FILM TO PREMIERE IN LONDON

Film Festival To Honor 67 Year Old First-Time Filmmaker

Burbank, California – Should a women have the right to go topless in public?

The world is about to find out.

TITS, a 7 minute documentary film about a woman's right to go topless in public, will have its World Premiere at this week's Let's All Be Free Film Festival in London.

Directed by Opal Dockery, TITS is a fascinating film about a woman's right to be topless in public, while bringing in the larger debates concerning women's rights and gender equality, the shocking, alternative short film is a story about Dockery's fight against what she perceives as discrimination against women in a very particular and conscientious way.

The film is the directorial debut of 67 year old first-time filmmaker Opal Dockery.

Dockery collaborates with her film producer son Jack Truman to share her thoughts about not being able to go topless in public, in conjunction with the annual Women's Equality Day topless protest in Venice Beach, California.

TITS is an eye-opening film from the team behind the cult mockumentary hit film PHONE SEX GRANDMA.

TITS

A Dixie Film

Running Time: 7 minutes

Director: Opal Dockery

WORLD PREMIERE

Let's All Be Free Film Festival

April 5 – 7, 2013

http://www.letsallbefree.com/documentary.html

My Inspiration

Switching my brain
Is all the same
As breathing.

When I write,
I do not have to fight
To find my inspiration.

100 STORIES FROM AN OLD STRIPPER

By Opal Dockery

Food For the Desk Clerk

One night after the strip show in Syracuse, New York all of us strippers went to have breakfast. It was a Greek restaurant. All of us ordered omelets with the "the works". There was so much food that we could not eat all of it. So we decided to be onery. We asked for one to-go container and put our left-overs from all our omelets in the one container. We went back to the hotel and told the desk clerk we were thinking about him and brought him a nice omelet. He said, "Oh you girls are so nice!" If he only knew!!!!!!

Deceiving Eyes

To realize
The eyes
Can deceive
Leads one to believe
That things are not Always as they seem

Working Three Jobs With No Car

I was working three different jobs and raising my children on my own with no support, financial or otherwise, from anyone. Also, I had no car. We lived in Independence, Missouri. I walked to work at a factory job in Sugar Creek that was approximately ten miles away, waited on tables at Waid's Restaurant on 40 Highway on the third shift, and go-go danced on 12th Street in downtown Kansas City when I was not working the waitress job.

I remember - I would take my little go-go outfit and go to each little go-go shack along 12th Street and ask if they needed a go-go dancer for the night. I almost always found work. They paid me $10.00 for a night of dancing which helped out a lot back then.

I cannot remember all the different ways I used for transportation back then, but I mainly walked. I remember that it was approximately ten miles to the factory job. I even walked it when it was raining. The check I got from this job was for the babysitter.

I remember that when I went to work at the waitress job which was on the all night shift, I would get my kids ready for bed. We would walk to a nearby restaurant and call the babysitter to come pick us up.

There was a period of time that I had to leave my kids with the babysitter all week long without seeing them because of the amount of work I had to do and the lack of transportation. During this time, I had given up my apartment and had no place to stay. I would sit up in a coffee shop all night acting like I was waiting for someone.

When I got the bartending job at the Pink Pussy Cat, I worked it a night. I still worked my day factory job in the daytime, and my waitress job on the weekends. Sometimes I would go for three days without sleeping. I had to be careful on my waitress job because I almost fell asleep calling in orders sometimes.

I was smart enough to know that I could not keep this up until my kids were eighteen; so I decided to give all the jobs up except for stripping and go on the road. That is one of the best decisions I ever made in my life.

Having My Period On Stage

I started my period on stage once in Syracuse, New York. It did not seem to bother the customers. Most were such perverted assholes anyway. Some were not, but even the ones who were not came there for any "off-the-wall" happenings - like an escape from reality. After the show, I remember that I asked a regular customer to go get me some tampons. I think his name was Howard. I can still remember what he looked like - older and always nice. He said, "I think you need some!"

Today Instead of Tomorrow

Today
One needs to say
Things that are hidden.
Tomorrow could be too late
Because fate
Does not wait.

CLEAR FEELINGS

The feelings are there
They are so clear.
I just need to reveal them.

It is clear
That I am near
To so many desired achievements.

When things are clear,
One does not fear
Uncertainty.

Claiming Self Expression

It is a shame
To not claim
Your right
To self-expression.

THOUGHTS OF A STRIPPER: A Mother's Story

ISBN: 978-0-557-49025-7

Price: $25.00

Dixie Publishing Company

177 Pages

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Save Others

Each day that we live
We must give
Of ourselves
To save others
The best we can.

Praying and Energy

I want to say
That those who pray
Have a satisfaction of heart
That is eased by inter-strength
Received from an entity they cannot see.
Those who do not pray
Might say
That their reliability of inter-strength
Must rely solely on energy within themselves.

My Need To Help The World

I want to write about different types of feelings and emotions. I possess a great desire to help the world in some way - to make a positive difference. I feel that I am capable of doing this through my writings. I feel that I have a "gift" that allows me to write on the spur of the moment on any subject. I decide the subject, take the pen in hand, then the thoughts and feelings come to me with no effort. They are just there waiting for me to reveal them. At that point, I feel like I am but an instrument for my thoughts and feelings with the aid of my pen and paper to write the words.

ANIMAL CRUELTY LAW IN THE UNITED STATES, A COMPARATIVE ANAYSIS

Opal Dockery

Category: Reference / Criminal Justice / Animal Rights / Education

ISBN: 978-0-557-57780-4 / Paperback $25.00

6x 9 inches / 225 Pages

Old Stripper Stories

Starring Opal Dockery

Where Is The Description?

Where is the Soul?
Where is the Spirit?
What is this feeling I have deep inside my being? Are they all the same? Will they lead me to the meaning of life if I call upon their services to do such?
If I cannot find the answer from these three, then where can I find it?
Is it to be found? Or is it to remain lost forever - above and beyond all human grasp?
If one can imagine it, it can be accomplished. But how can one imagine something that has no description?

THOUGHTS OF A STRIPPER: A Mother's Story

ISBN: 978-0-557-49025-7

Price: $25.00

Dixie Publishing Company

177 Pages

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An Animal's Eyes - A Poem from THE OLD STRIPPER

AN ANIMAL'S EYES
By Opal Dockery


Study an animal. Look into his face.
See his eyes and know that he is a living, feeling being the same as you.
Think of his eyes while you are eating him.

ANIMAL CRUELTY LAW IN THE UNITED STATES, A COMPARATIVE ANAYSIS

Opal Dockery

Category: Reference / Criminal Justice / Animal Rights / Education

ISBN: 978-0-557-57780-4 / Paperback $25.00

6x 9 inches / 225 Pages

THE CENTER OF EVIL

I feel like I am in the mist of evil in this world. I am enveloped in the "Center Of Evil". I need to figure out someway for my goodness to expand and shatter the evil around me and dissolve all its part. This can be attempted by examples of kindness to animals and activism against the constant killing and torture of them in everyway including eating, wearing, and experimentation.

A CONSIDERATION THAT CHILDHOOD OBESITY COULD BE CLASSIFIED AS LEGALIZED CHILD ABUSE

Opal Dockery

Category: Reference / Diet & Health / Parenting & Family / Child Abuse

ISBN: 978-0-557-72365-2 / Paperback $18.00

6x 9 inches / 118 Pages

THE OUTCRY

Opal Dockery

THE OLD STRIPPER

The outcry of humanity.
The outcry of joy.
The outcry of pain.
All these are a part of humanity.

THOUGHTS OF A STRIPPER: A Mother's Story

ISBN: 978-0-557-49025-7

Price: $25.00

Dixie Publishing Company

177 Pages

Making Use of My Capabilities

I am so capable of making a positive difference in the world. I need to put my capabilities to work for a good cause. I would like to at least, before I die, see the positive effect I have had on the world to - at least, get a movement started to prove that animals should not be used for food, clothing, experimentation, or any other methods that cause their unnecessary deaths and tortures.

Animals should only be killed by humans in the matters of self-defense. We should consider animals as friends. We should be their caretakers.

I do not go by the Bible; but the numerous Christians who do should read the first book of Genesis that says we have "dominion" over animals. It does not say we have "domination" over them. Dominion means caretaker. We have dominion over our children; but that does not give us the right to inflict unnecessary pain and death on them.

I need to incorporate all my capabilities into attempting to come to the aid of animals - "non-humans" by trying to bring public awareness to the fact that non-humans have feelings and emotions. Therefore humans need to treat them with respect by not killing them for their own selfish benefit.

THOUGHTS OF A STRIPPER: A Mother's Story

Written by Opal Dockery

Copyright @ Dixie Publishing

ISBN:978-0-557-49025-7

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OUR PAINFUL WORLD

Opal Dockery

THE OLD STRIPPER

Pain surrounds me. Everywhere I look, I see things made form leather or people eating animals (meat). I feel so bad to be involved in such suffering – constantly! I am involved just by being a part of this painful animal – cruelty world. I hope that someday this will change. I want to do more than hope. I want to be a part of the change.

When I think about all the pain in the world, it saddens me. I know people are hungry, children are abused and sexually assaulted, and the list goes on. We are all aware of these problems, and efforts are made to help alleviate the sufferings. But everyone knows that not enough is being done.

One type of suffering we all overlook is that which has to do with animals. They suffer constantly; but nobody hears their cries. They are born to be butchered and eaten or whatever else our so-called “humanity” decides to do with them.

People talk about animals' rights while they are eating their steaks. Greenpeace activists forget that the tuna, also, has feelings even though it cannot cry like the Dolphin.

If we see a slight resemblance such as monkeys being experimented on or hear a cry similar to ours such as the Dolphin, then we feel that these animals should not be killed or tortured. But the other animals have feelings, too – even though they cannot express it to us in order for us to understand.

But I understand and so do many others like me. The killings and the murders must be stopped the pain and suffering must cease. When you bite into your steak, think about the pain suffered for this one bite. Oh, yes, was the animal male or female? What is the number of different animal's flesh all jumbled together that you are eating?

How can a person love their pets and still be a meat eater?

We have enough food in our society, such as fruits, vegetables, nuts, and grains that we do not have to resort to the ignorance of being a meat-eater.

We should lift our heads high and rise above the ignorance of our ancestors. We should study health and realize that meat is not a food and is bad for our bodies. Most cholesterol problems would cease if we stopped eating meat. We must search our hearts and souls and come face to face with the fact that we are basically good, and gentle people. We are not slaughterers and murderers. We must figure out a way to let the animals live!

ANIMAL CRUELTY LAW IN THE UNITED STATES - A COMPARATIVE ANALYSIS

Written by Opal Dockery

Copyright @ Dixie Publishing

ISBN: 9780557577804

THE ACCEPTABLE SIN

The Award Winning Documentary Short Film

Featuring Opal Dockery

A Dixie Film

Having My Period On Stage

I started my period on stage once in Syracuse, New York. It did not seem to bother the customers. Most were such perverted assholes anyway. Some were not, but even the ones who were not cme there for any "off-the-wall" happenings - like an escape from reality. After the show, I remember that I asked a regular customer to go get me some tampons. I think his name was Howard. I can still remember what he looked like - older and always nice. He said, "I think you need some!"

100 STORIES FROM AN OLD STRIPPER
Written by Opal Dockery
Copyright @ Dixie Publishing
Available Now on AMAZON and LULU

100 STORIES FROM AN OLD STRIPPER

The Book Trailer

Written by Opal Dockery, THE OLD STRIPPPER

Short Little Fat Guy Wanting To Make Her Cum

One week when I was dancing as a stripper in Detroit, Michigan, a stripper on the show - Misty Knight - told me a very funny story. She said whe was in the little cafe next to the burlesque theater when a short little fat guy came up and propositioned her for $100.00.

She went to his motel room. She said she could hardl even see it let alone feel it. He was all red in the face and puffing when he said, "I wanna make you cum." He could just barely get the words out. She laughed and replied, "How in the Hell do you think you're gonna make ME cum?"

100 STORIES FROM AN OLD STRIPPER
Written by Opal Dockery
Copyright @ Dixie Publishing
ISBN: 9780557599868

The Best Way for Me to Make a Difference

Sometimes I feel afraid to write because there are so many thoughts that need to come out. I feel that I will offend the ones that are not permitted to surface.

The words are there - inside my mind waiting patiently to aid me in expressing my thoughts. All I have to do is write.

I want to make a difference in the world. I am sixty seven years old and have led a selfish life caring only for myself, my children, relatives, and close friends while traveling and enjoying life to the fullest as I know it. There have been many difficult obstacles to climb and overcome; but he good times overshadowed these.

Now it is time for me to make a difference. I have cheated the world from ever knowing the capabilities of my mind and the accomplishments I could have attained to make a difference such as becoming a doctor and discovering a cure for AIDS or becoming a lawyer and saving someone's innocent life from death row. These are examples of things I could have done. Now is the time for me to choose a manner in which to benefit the world "as a whole".

I have decided that the best "all around" way for me to do this is to concentrate on feelings and emotions. This concentration has led me to the animal.

A CONSIDERATION THAT CHILDHOOD OBESITY COULD BE CLASSIFIED AS LEGALIZED CHILD ABUSE

Opal Dockery

Category: Reference / Diet & Health / Parenting & Family / Child Abuse

ISBN: 978-0-557-72365-2

THE ACCEPTABLE SIN

An Award-Winning Documentary Short Film

Featuring Opal Dockery

Directed by Jack Truman

A Dixie Film

Controversy - Are People Good or Bad?

Opal Dockery, THE OLD STRIPPER

As Melissa St. John

At the Esquire Burlesk

I used to think that people were basically good. But now I think they are basically bad. One area that displays this fact is the cruelty humans lace on animals such as eating, wearing, and experimentation. How can one accept the pain that animals constantly endure without any guilt? This is bad - not good.

ANIMAL CRUELTY LAW IN THE UNITED STATES, A COMPARATIVE ANALYSIS
Written by Opal Dockery
Copyright @ Dixie Publishing

The Core of Existence

Opal Dockery, THE OLD STRIPPER

As Melissa St. John at the Garden Burlesk

We must get to the "Core of Existence" - the very essence of life. We must seek out the "Meat of Life" and take a big bite out of it and digest it to benefit our life and then eliminate it to benefit the rest of humanity.

100 STORIES FROM AN OLD STRIPPER
Written by Opal Dockery
Copyright Dixie Publishing
ISBN: 9780557599868

THE DIFFERENCE

Opal Dockery, THE OLD STRIPPER

I am not a genius,
But I try to be.
I am not rich,
But I try to be.
I am not famous,
But I want to be.
I am kind - I am good,
And that has made all the difference.

Animal Cruelty Law in the United States, A Comparative Analysis
By Opal Dockery
Copyright Dixie Publishing
ISBN: 978 - 0 - 557 - 57780 - 4

Fear and Positivity

Opal Dockery, THE OLD STRIPPER

The Gayety Burlesk

1978

Know fear,
But keep dear
To your heart
Positive thoughts

100 STORIES FROM AN OLD STRIPPER
By Opal Dockery
Copyright @ Dixie Publishing
ISBN: 9781257922727

A PLEA TO THE HUMAN RACE FROM THE ANIMALS

Opal Dockery

aka THE OLD STRIPPER

A PLEA TO THE HUMAN RACE FROM THE ANIMALS

By

Opal Dockery

Look into my eyes

And you will realize

How I am like you

With feelings, spirit, and a soul, too.

Look into my eyes

And you will be surprised

That you can be my friend

Time and time again.

Look into my eyes

and you will see the size

Of all the pain

That still remains.

Look into my eyes

And tell me all the whys

That your race kills mine

Why can you not be kind?

Look into my eyes

And you will see the cries

Of all the suffering I endure

Is there not a cure?

Look into my eyes

And finalize

Your thoughts

As you see the reflection of yourself.

See the FREE award-winning short film THE ACCEPTABLE SIN on Youtube:

THE ACCEPTABLE SIN

Featuring Opal Dockery

Directed by Jack Truman

Screened at over 30 film festivals worldwide

A Dixie Film

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ANIMAL CRUELTY LAW INTHE UNITED STATES: A COMPARATIVE ANALYSIS

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